I don't love you anymore - monologue

I came back to tell you . . .

That I don’t love you anymore.

I realized it last night as I was walking away from you.

Last night was no more than a random act of bravery,

but it meant something to me.

No I didn’t go and have sex with that guy but I could have,

and it would have had nothing to do with you.

I walked away and didn’t look back.

Even if I did turn the corner and simply ask him to walk me to my car.

I walked away from you and that felt better than having the heaviest weight lifted off of my shoulder.

Better than any gift I’ve been given.

It was like finally breathing for the first time because I thought I forgot how without you.

I do not love you anymore.

I can move on and I mean really move on.

Not just searching for empty promises.

Or to vacate the loneliness no,

not the point less hook ups looking to fill the void I thought was left from you leaving me.

No. . .

I’m going to move on for me.

Meet someone new and invest my time in them.

Happily risk falling in love again,

because damn it I sure don’t love you!

And I am so happy.